I officially need to change some things. I'm not impressed with where I am in life... Working almost full time as a bartender and part time at trader joes. I'm not doing creative things. The main extra curricular activity would be yoga- which don't getme wrong I LOVE!
It's been depressing me a little that I work so much doing things that aren't related to my talents. They just leave me utterly drained and overwhelmed. No the bar so much but the two combine is quite the combo.
I havE goals and for now having a second job is paying off my debt. Bu when that's dont serious changes and roads need to b changed.

More often then not I find myself in a state of unhappiness with life more then happy.
There are things I like, enjoy doing, want to do ect.. But the hard cold truth is that the bad not just affect my mind and heart but all the way to my soul.
At times it paralyzed and the sad truth is that there are no answers, no cures.. Which deepens the bad.
I'm sitting on the balcony watching the sunset alone because I was yet again, ditched.
And having dinner alone because I was yet again... Ditched.
People hurt people and a lot of the time they either don't care or don't even know they hurt someone because the recipient is too scared to be honest and vulnerable.