GG and God.

This is the new addition to our home/family. She is so loved its absolutely ridiculous. She's a baby bunny (that I think was wild) but was rescued from the mouth of a cat. And she is a cuddly one. I don't think I have ever loved a little furry thing more. I am allergic to her. .. but I'm dealing ;] . Elliot (3 yrs old) has decided to name her Great Grandfather. Haha.. So Brittany has decided to shorten to GG. She came home quite traumatized saturday night and cuddled with me for the first 4 hours. We have showered her with attention, lettuce, broccoli and apples and today her ears are up and she's hopping around like she owns the house! Success!

On another note.. after this friday the kids are out of school for two weeks. Mind you the school has a list of art projects for me a mile long BUT I will still take a break and I am so stinkin excited.

I'm feelin slightly indifferent about the weekend because I totally slept saturday away and didn't really do anything else the rest of the night. I went to church sunday and it was a great sermon. Had lunch with friends. Then I went to a graduation. It wasn't as bad as I remember mine ;] the only real bad part was the weather. I enjoyed the company I was with and proud to see a graduate!

Today my boss called me into my office to talk about some stuff and one of them was to tell me how he was able to put Sunday's church sermon into action that same day. (We go to the same church). That was just an extra plus because really. .. how many boss' can you just sit and process with about a church sermon?

I can to some conclusions this weekend that I used to have down but let dissipate over the years. I needed some rejuvenation.
So I decided to embrace heartache. Embrace trials. Embrace consequences. And not just embrace joy but squeeze it until there is none.
This is hard; to embrace pain. Who really wants to embrace pain?
I also decided to make much more of an effort to surrender my will over to God. This has been a huge weight for me because I have fought the surrender.
But I must do it.
I also decided to trust God. I know.. seems like it should be something I have down but I don't. I haven't wanted to allow it but now I can't avoid it anymore. Its not ok for me to not try to trust the One who has freely given grace, unconditionally loved, and saved me.

All of this has been big steps.. well baby steps .. but I am trying. My heart has been fighting and today I've felt heavy but I don't want to keep giving up.