I am up late on a thursday night and it feels amazing. I really enjoy staying up late. Not only did I finish a rad stencil..but I also taped it down on canvas so it is spray paint ready tomorrow.
I also don't work until 9am tomorrow which feels great already. And I'll probably get off work around 315ish. Thank you friday.
I plan to have a nice jog on the beach tomorrow. I really look forward to that.. it keeps my head in place. I bought new jogging gear (and soccer gear) and I'm slightly excited to wear it. I don't think I've ever really bought gear just for jogging.. it's always been too-old-to-wear in public clothes. Now I'm jogging in style and my new tank top is neon yellow. YaHoo!
I was at work today from 7:30am-3:30pm. I didn't start work until 2:15pm. Not even kidding. And I don't get paid hourly so it's a huge waste of my time.
I have been applying for jobs .. but not just any job because I'd rather stay at this job then change to a job that sucks the same or worse.
I also am processing what is most important to bring up to my boss' that needs to change. I don't want to bog them down with all my irritations; they will always be there and I need to think through which one's are legitimate and worth bringing up.
I do know that they are doing things wrong though.

Anywho.. I have quite the weekend ahead. Jogging and art after work tomorrow.. hopefully something fun in the evening like music =D
Saturday morning market (my fav) along with some soccer. Then beach for some swim, volleyball, frisbee and whatever else.
Sunday morning going to the avocado festival in Carp and evening church. It does seem a little packed to me because I have actual plans I have to somewhat stick to.
I'm not the best with plans. Some are necessary and very needed and I still make them to some extent but overall I am a blow-with-the-wind individual. And very spontaneous. Which I love.
And.. I'm wide awake.. still and it's midnight. Love it.
K I'm off to tackle the job hunt thing for the evening.

My heart beats graffiti.

Dang. Lately I have been ready to sleep around ten. Unless I'm out and about. But it's a good tired.. like one that I've accomplished a lot in a day. Which lately, I have very much so. Running after 2 little girls all day, jogging 4-5 times a week in the sand, playing soccer on weekends.. pretty sure I should expect to be toast. I also feel like a freakin food monster. I'm not eating junk but man have I been hungry because I'm constantly going!
It's all good feelings though.
I haven't been making time for internet because there are so many other things calling my name. Like right now. .. the stencil I've been spending a lot of time on. I'm really into this stenciling spray paint media. The downfall is that it is really a long process if you make your own stencils and why would I not make my own stencils?
Someday I will do graffiti and this is the start. =D extra big smile about that.

I'm going to a show tomorrow and I've been craving to wear heels and I think I will do just that. I feel like you can never wear enough red lipstick or heels but I still have that small insecurity inside that says I'm too overdressed or it doesn't fit or whatever. Bleh.. stupid insecurity.
Tomorrow is thursday. My weeks go by pretty fast (work that is) and then my weekends seem to be pretty good. They haven't gone by too fast so far.
I must say that I see such a HUGE difference in my energy and emotional levels just with work. Don't get me wrong.. I'm looking for a better fit with work but still I don't care if I am tired all day at work and it doesn't stress me out if I stay up too late. When I was teaching in the environment I was, I remember that being a really big issue. Constant amount of stress. Well.. it's gone now!
K off to drink my glass of wine that I poured and bust out this sick stencil!

spiders.

Well my phobia of spiders is changing. There have maybe only been three days here where there hasn't been a spider in the shower and a spiderweb that I walk thru morning or night. They seem to be everywhere that I am.

I've had quite the hilarious moments at Trader Joe's. Last week a worker came up to me as I was checking my list in my phone and said "hey there cell phone girl.. can I help you with anything?" We kinda chatted and I said I was fine and he then said "well.. I'll be around where you can find me so don't hesitate to do so." Then a few minutes later a guy awkwardly spins to face me and says "I just had to follow you because you smell so amazing and I wanted to smell you longer."
Yesterday I went into Trader Joe's and a guy came up to me and said "Your eyes are so striking I could stare into them all night."
Soooo what's up with Trader Joe's?
At least it keeps my life entertaining and definitely something for me to laugh about.

I saw the most amazing bands last night. They completely filled my hole for great live music and feel amazing! They were from Portland; Typhoon and A Ya Bamba (I think I have that right). Sheesh were they good. I was so impressed especially since music is so hard right now and a lot of people make the same stuff.

Frustrations= my job. Well not my job necessarily.. just certain dynamics. I am still processing through how I want to go about addressing it because I know something can change. I also know that work is work.

I haven't felt this healthy in 5 years. I did the math today while I was on my jog. Five years ago I started going to bible college and after a year I sort of went downhill from numerous circumstances. Now.. I feel absolutely wonderful and didn't even realize how poopy I was feeling. I am referring to all aspects here.. emotionally, spiritually, physically, mentally.. whatever else there is =D. It's great. I mean there's definitely lame moments and lame days but they end and I started to forget what it felt like to be here in this place, not scared for it to leave. It's only getting better I can feel it. I have only but thanks to lift up to God.
Well.. all for now.. the beach is calling my name.

Well.. haven't been posting. Which I find a good thing because it means I'm having too much fun doing other stuff.
I have.
Oh Santa Barbara is treating me well and I plan to take full use of everything here. Lots of plans for adventure and exploring and fun times.
This past weekend was absolutely ridiculously fun because my brother was in town. I must say that we probably had too much fun Saturday and I finally felt fully recovered this afternoon.

Well.. thats all.. I'm off to do some art.

wonderful

is how I feel all the time lately.
Why hello beautiful Sunday. I haven't appreciated life this much in a long while. Lame that I wasn't as much but yay that I am now. There hasn't been a single second that I have not LOVED being here in Santa Barbara.
I went to Santa Barbara Community Church this morning and so far it seems great. We'll see as I meet more people and actually get a little more involved in something.
I went walking up and down state street today with some tasty Gelato in hopes to work out my sore and broken legs from playing soccer. it was more painful then I thought. I should have just rested today and waited until tomorrow when I am at work and the rascals are running me around.
Ahh mondays. Whether ya like your job or not mondays are a drag. I have to get up fairly early tomorrow but it should be fine. I'm usually fully awake by 9 and after that can usually last.
I need to start being disciplined about painting even if its only for 15 minutes a day. It needs to be done!
and on that note.. I'm going to go do that now =D

Smells like home.

Well.. I have been quite busy and very disconnected from social networks on the internet. It's been nice. I do like the internet and all but at the same time it is absolutely FANTASTIC to be in a social environment again.. meaning Santa Barbara. =D In washington it seemed like there were days when the internet was the most exciting thing going on and that is dumb. I don't want my life to be like that.
I arrived in Santa Barbara monday and worked my first week tues-fri. We'll see how it goes- I won't publicly comment on that yet.
I stayed busy every night of the week so far with or without people and it was absolutely great.
Last night i moved into my room, which I love!! I stayed up late to unpack everything and organize. Organizing always feels like some form of medicine to me. Couldn't tell ya why.
Today I did a little more to my room, played some intense soccer, sketched at a coffee shop, went to a friends.
I must say I feel old. My body that is. I know I'll be fine but I am really feeling the soccer games at this point. I want to ice my whole lower body. My shins are definitely beat up and I learned my lesson about not having proper attire. I haven't really re-visited soccer since I was younger. No reason why but I played for a long time as a kid and loved it.
Well.. this move has been wonderful. I have not second guessed it once. I have not missed my life in washington once. I know that sucks to say but that comment doesn't have anything to do with my loved ones. This feels more then right and I haven't felt this at home for a long time. It's so weird how much I did not realize how uncomfortable washington was. I mean.. I was uncomfortable and didn't want to be there but now that I'm here its a lot clearer to me.
I think a lot of good will come of this and continue to come.
I also have felt very strongly that God was doing some serious work in me preparing for this season. Big plans.
I really do dream big. I love doing everything which can be good and bad because I constantly battle what to do. Day by day.
Tomorrow I hope to not be a zombie and a creaky sore mess and get up for church =).
First day at church here and I will be going alone. Which I'm ok with.
Goodnight.