It's easy to forget how sad I am about something until it's talked about.
I was reminded of that tonight.
The time spent on earth will be broken time and I wish I could say that things didn't bring me down. I wish that I could say I grasped the fullness of eternity and how small today is. How small life is.
At the end of the day I'm happy about where I am, in a personal way.
I can say that right now, age 26, I am only able to enjoy life more and more as the days start and end. I learn more each day and not that I haven't been learning every day of my life, but now the awareness and desire is present and active. My philosophy of life is worked through and sorted out more and more with each day. My awareness of who I am and where I want to go, in any manner, is only becoming more visible. The "innocence" of the world becomes less and less the goggles I look through and is slowing melting away. Not to say everything is bad - I just notice it more then I did. To enjoy the small things in life and find ways to bring joy is a gift.
So life continues and sometimes it just seems like too much happens in one day.