I'll miss you..

I found a job in Carpenteria today. It's a nanny position for 2 little girls. I think it'll be a great fit. They want me to start September 1st. But I will start on the 6th. I must say that's much much much sooner then I had anticipated. I would've been couch surfing here for the month of september (which would be hard) and dragging out the goodbyes- which always suck.
My sister and nephew just left my house and as I closed the door my heart fell. The reality that I will be leaving my best friend, sister, and mom in less then 3 weeks flooded me with deep sadness. I haven't always been near her but these past years that I have lived in Washington the bond has only grown.
I do want to be in california. I know this in many ways. But that doesn't take away the empty feeling that missing a person brings. I will miss many people but either way I miss. Here or there.
It's time to start a new chapter because this one I've been in the past year has only started to stain and rip the pages.
I'm sure I will struggle with missing people as I always do. I feel like my capacity to feel things on a deeper level is a gift but when it comes to pain and sadness I'm not particularly excited about it.
But I'm very excited. It's almost surreal because of how fast everything fell into place.
as time will always fly..