Know that you are blessed.

I've been presented this week with the reality that I have created a distance in my heart with God and only the first board of the bridge has been laid. I always believe it's not possible to stray but I also know that is the most ignorant thing to believe. I love God and I know that. My heart craves Him and I know that I will continue the path to follow. I also know that there are parts of me that I have taken back. Parts that He once had completely and over time, with pain, I have taken them back and now fear is in front of them.
Those that are precious to God are important to satan. -"Same Kind of Different As Me."
I find that to be true. The enemy is always on the prowl.
The times I have been closest to God and letting Him own all of my heart have also been my most heavy hearted and depressed seasons of life. I don't want that. I don't want to feel heavy hearted and depressed. I also know that brokenness occurs only to flourish into something greater and I believe that God ONLY wants something greater. I also know that praying for joy in Him is something I have never done.
I was most encouraged today by someone I've only known a month. She was the first person I met at church and I already know that our friendship will be far from meaningless.
I was encouraged to rely on God in a way I haven't for a very long time.
I find it true that when we share details to the seasons of our lives in a transparent form, we share God's story of His redeeming and sanctifying Love. I saw that tonight brighter then I have in a while.
Thank you.