A lyric ran through my head last night and the words had left my lips as I opened my eyes from sleep..

I've had so much to write about but everytime its all in the forefront of my mind I either can't sit down at the computer or am out and about.
First of all.. Stateless is a great band. I just discovered them. Totally hooked.
His voice is epic and the music kind of reminds me of Mutemath but not as much noise. If that makes sense.
I have been failing at my at least 30 minutes of art everyday lately. I've gotten so sucked into stenciling that I'm not working on stuff that really needs to be worked on. And I keep seeing things I should be submitting my art into and not doing it because I have some unfinished stuff, some frameless stuff, or whatever the case. There's always an excuse right? Well I don't really want to have excuses anymore. I've always had excuses for art in some form or another that prevented me from really stepping out there. One of my huge goals and challenges I knew I wanted to conquer moving to Santa Barbara and I want to stick to it.
The gray weather really gets to me. Not a fan. I have noticed the past couple days finding myself slightly down, slightly sluggish. A feeling I never want to feel or visit again. Especially now that I no longer live in WA.
Goodbye gray skies.
The idea of selfishness has still been whirling around in my head. I think about how I am selfish and how it works itself in or out of my life. But I am also taking notes on others. I am definitely one that observes. I always have been. I have learned a lot in just observing. I have found that in our quest to become more selfless we can be selfish. It's almost a blind trick and we don't realize that out of selfishness we are trying to be selfless. I know I just repeated myself. It's just me processing. Its a tough subject because I think selfishness and selflessness can be interpreted by people differently and very wrongly depending on expectations and such. Lot to think about.
So I started reading Same Kind Of Different As Me. I am really enjoying it a lot. I started Grapes of Wrath not too long ago because John Steinbeck is one of my favorite authors but it was moving so slow. But this other book really has me. It really has been a while that I have read a book that has my attention to where I'm trying to stay awake to read rather than falling asleep in the words.
I have an interview in an hour and a half. Its for a different family to nanny for and the benefits are so much better on all levels then my current position. There are good things about my current position but there is too much messiness and other stuff that I know I won't be staying in this current position for long. I did apply for an art teaching position that I qualify for. I did that monday and as it is only wednesday I still have not even heard if they received my application or resume. We'll see. That would be the ultimate position rather then being a nanny. A nanny job to me is just a job I can handle that has consistency, pays the bills, and is good while I finish school. Definitely not something to end with.
I was going to run tonight but the weather is gross and I have decided that after my interview I will come home and do art. Really crack down on some projects.
And for now.. I'm off to do art before as well!