I am so utterly loved by Frankie it's overwhelming.
No one is more excited when I come home or can't stand being away from me. I'm pretty sure he doesn't get sick of me either.

I need to consider myself lucky.. or fortunate for a better term.

There are a lot of things that I don't understand right now.
That feel left open and stuck. It's extremely uncomfortable and there are no solutions.
I feel like I am walking on broken glass that I broke. Hesitant to move, scared to love, scared to even feel..
Actions can be so loud and painful.
and i know that mine can be too.

I'm not sure whether to scream or cry and I know that screaming is a branch of anger and anger takes the place of pain but really, I should be embracing the pain. BUT how do you really embrace pain I mean c'mon the last thing I want to do is hold pain tight.

I lost 3 days this weekend to poor choices. I don't make poor choices very often but I guess I was really repressed from stuff.

I wish I had a space heater.

I think this is enough for tonight. I just needed a small relief.