this blog has followed me in life for some years now. not sure if anyone reads it but it's not about that for me. its more of a storage of emotions, experience, events... theres always more secrets, more to tell. but this blog holds a lot of my heart. i can honestly say that at this point in life, 28 years old, in the past year i have experienced real love. i always thought i had but my heart desired more than what i thought i had. i would watch others in love and see the connection, the attachment, the desire and know deep down that i hadn't felt that. i wanted that to be my reality so i tried for it within the relationships i held which almost blocked reality. it was horrible now that i look back. but now, at this time in my life the bar has truly been raised and no longer will i put up with anything less than that connection that really is indescribable. i am so much happier alone with moments of loneliness waiting for real love than putting up with empty love. i learn more about patience every day. actually more about everything every day. i'm enjoying getting older... growing into myself, feeling my own skin, finding the real confidence and learning. just learning. being ok with loving freely.. loving deeply.. letting fear go. "Intense love doesn't measure, it just gives." - Momma T.