Admit it Tacoma, you're beautiful...

...is the bumper sticker on the van in front of me yesterday. The ironic thing is that just prior to noticing this bumper sticker I was deep in thought about the defined relationship I have with Tacoma = it is a love/hate relationship. humph.

I feel like writing about random things (not that most of my stuff isn't like that already...)
I saw Ivoryline tonight and I would like to see them again someday.
"my complacency won't last much longer..."

There are days I wish I could eat only peanut butter and chocolate but lately that has not been as appetizing as usual.
This past year I've been very disobedient to what I feel like God called me to do/be.
I now take action.
I really love love love tattooing but really hate it at the same time.
God always follows through. And ya know.. I don't know why I would ever not rely on that because He's perfect. But I also deal with humans all the time who do things like.. fart, smell, drive bad, eat bad, don't take care of things, don't always follow through, make poor choices, give into temptations... we can all think of more..
BUT God in His nature is not human and does not act like man. That is one of my favorite parts about Him.

I really like smelling good and feeling clean even though I go through phases where showering drives me crazy.
I don't like being cold.
More often than not, beauty overwhelms me and I can't seem to describe the way it makes me feel but I know that its good.
Going to Figurative Art School is one of my favorite things I've done in life so far.
So was going to Eternity Bible College. I don't know that I will ever live with a better group of girls again.
I leave voicemails but I don't check mine until I have like 15 in my box. I don't fully understand it but they make me feel pressured in an anxious way so I leave them for a long time. Or I skip to the only one I want to hear.
I surround myself with kids because the reality is that I still am a kid.
I wish letting go was easier.
I don't plan well. there's nothing more to say about this.
I fly by the seat of my pants too much.
I worry about future stuff but I really only like taking things day by day.
I'm a procrastinator in every sense of the word. It doesn't matter what it is. I'm sorry if it bugs you (whoever you are) but I really do work best this way. It isn't something "I'm working on" because it just is.
I really do get jealous of creative people because I don't have everyone else's nitch and it's easy to think of mine as extroardinary.
I have a very talented, messy family and I really do believe that God is trying to mend the cracks of damage.
I miss the beach in a way that weighs very heavily on my heart a lot of the time and more than that I miss my brother. .. the beach and my brother are a 2 in 1 deal.
No matter where I am I'm torn and it's something I have to find contentment in.
Being rushed completely stresses me out.
I never want to work earlier than 7am again. My body just doesn't work that way.
We should all play more and work less.. or add more play to the work.
I create best when I have no time to.
I rarely get paid for the amount of artwork I do and that is the sad part of being an artist. At the opposite end of that.. it is sooo hard to put a price on my paintings. It's like selling a portion of my heart which I don't do. It should be given.
Love is extremely tiresome and hard but I think the most rewarding thing you can ever get yourself into. I think that naturally, we all love easily but selfishness constantly knocks at our door.
Becoming a follower of Christ has been the hardest decision so far. But it has also been the decision with most value and worth. I can't imagine where I would be now without Him.
I am beyond utterly blessed to have the people I do in my life who knew me 8-10 years ago. I was not only a bitch but I constantly made poor decisions and did not chose right over wrong. Those people love and follow the Lord and He had his hand on me before I even knew of Him and He used those people to love me through their own faults.
I told a student today that this past year has been one of the hardest years for me and she was so shocked it surprised me. I forget that kids think that adults have no worries or hardships.
I love my job but at the same time I'm scared and on edge a majority of the time and it wears on me more and more.

My heart is completely smiling right now even though life isn't perfect.. and for that I have joy.