She's only happy in the sun

I'm going to Long Beach and I kinda wish I wasn't coming back to tacoma after. Sad part is that I have to for now.
Last years LB trip was a disaster and I'm glad that won't be repeated this year =). I hope its sunny.
Sick of the rain and clouds. So sick of them. Goodbye rain I would NEVER miss you if I never saw you again.
I'm a last minute person. I'm leaving in an hour and haven't packed yet or got ready. I always think its kinda funny when people won't hang out or do stuff the few nights prior to going out of town because they have to pack. Really? Is packing really that intense? Maybe someday I'll understand the intensity.

I want to avoid some things in my life right now. Ignore. Say screw you to them. But that never makes things better. Anger and resentment always seems to take the place of pain when I'm sick of feeling pain. Well I'm sick of feeling pain.
If we were more genuinly selfless we probably wouldn't hurt others so much. The problem is that we're not.
Lame.

Well.. here I go. To the beach to forget about all this shit and have fun. Run on the beach, hopefully do some art.
Then.. hopefully I'll go to cali at the end of the month and really get away. By myself.